“I’ve Had Really Dark Nights”: Kendall Jenner Opens Up About Modeling Challenges

Kendall Jenner rose to fame as a model for luxury brands, a journey that began alongside her family’s reality show, Keeping Up with the Kardashians. Her entry into the fashion industry, along with her sister Kylie Jenner, quickly led to high-profile gigs. However, with success came numerous challenges.

In the latest episode of the podcast Anything Goes, hosted by Emma Chamberlain, Kendall revealed the emotional toll of her career, sharing that work pressure sometimes led her to cry herself to sleep, as reported by the Mirror.

“I’m not gonna sit here and say that I’ve had the toughest journey. I think I’ve been extremely fortunate. But I also have had my own set of challenges, whether it’s [being] overworked or not getting a job that I would’ve really loved to get,” she stated, according to People.

She disclosed that her world can often feel isolating, admitting she sometimes yearns for something wild and unexpected to break the monotony. “It is very lonely. I’ve had really dark nights where I’ve been in random cities and just hysterically crying myself to sleep.”

The fashion star continued, “I haven’t been home in three months and I’ve been pretty much alone the entire time.” Her busy work schedule often causes her to miss her home and family. “Something really crazy happens at home that I would love to be there for and I’m being told I can’t be,” she revealed.

“There’s been a lot of definite moments where I’m like, ‘What is going on, is this all worth it?'” Despite these challenges, Kendall expressed gratitude for her professional blessings. “It really is a beautiful thing to be able to travel the world the way I have. I probably would’ve never traveled the way I have or the amount that I have, had I not had this job. I’ve met a lot of amazing people. I feel very grateful for my experience,” she stated.

Earlier, in a Vogue interview, Kendall shared her excitement about the prospect of starting a family one day. She confessed, “I dream, above all, of longevity. Even when I’m older, I hope people will still think of me. I’d like to stay in the limelight as the years go by. I would love to have a family, become a mother, and have children.”

During the May 2024 Vogue interview, she also admitted, “I don’t see why I shouldn’t be honest about it. In my career right now I feel really stable, really hopeful. But I’ve had a tough two months. I haven’t been myself, and my friends see it. I’m more sad than usual. I’m way more anxious than usual. So I’m not going to sit here and act like everything’s perfect.”

The reality star concluded, “That’s life—I’m always going to be in and out of those feelings. In past interviews, when someone’s asked me about my mental state, it’s always been, ‘I’m great right now, but this is what I’ve dealt with.’ Well, right now I’m actually in it.”